Upset. I see my peers, happy, engaged or even married, and possibly even expecting.

And it upsets me.

I want that life. But, I’m glad I don’t have it at the same time. I’m glad to be furthering my career, and going places in life…. But… I can’t help but wonder what if.

What if I had a wife? What if we both had a semi decent job and were expecting our first child? What if I wasn’t how I am?

What if…

I wonder this.

But am thankful at the same time. For having my own life. And I realize that I am only handed what someone else(higher) knows I can handle.

As much as I want that normalcy, I wasn’t made normally. So I’m not going to have that cookie cutter life.

So, all I can do, is raise my glass in a cheers to life. Something bigger is planned.

bring.it.on.motherfucker.