walk with me.: Archive

It's time to say goodbye, to turning tables.

I swore I would never speak to him again. But, recently, all I can think of, and even fucking dream, (I fucking dream about him) is seeing him one last time. I’m taking that, as me needing to see him. And I do. I’m trying so hard to make this new relationship work, but can’t stop thinking about him. I think, maybe a sit down dinner, where I can get everything off my chest,...

Feb 11th

I try to say goodbye and I choke...

I can’t. A year ago today, I got the call that you had gone. I got the call that tore my life apart. And I still haven’t put it back together. My mother, my everything. I love you. I miss you. And, right now, I need you so much. I wish I could talk to you one last time. Hear you laugh again. I feel lost. I miss you. I love you.

Feb 5th

I'm here without you, baby

But you’re still with me in my dreams, and tonight boy, it’s only you and me. I wish this was about my boyfriend…

Feb 5th

I would say I'm doing just fine

I would lie, and say that you’re not on my mind, But I go out, and I sit down, at a table set for two, and finally I’m forced to face the truth, no matter what I say, I’m, not over you.

Jan 25th

But, somehow I manage.

I want the one thing that’s worst for me. And I want it now. Now. Now. Now. Dammit. But I’m too cowardly. It’s only a text away. Coward. Coward. Coward. Good.

Jan 21st

All the drugs in this world

Today was surreal. I’ve never watched someone die before. And I never want to see it again.

Jan 19th

'Mr. Basil!'

Did you ever see ‘The Great Mouse Detective’, as a child? I did. It was probably one of the scariest movies I watched as a child. And it’s funny, because, as an adult, parts still scare me. Other parts, are relatable. Funny, how mice can offer guidance. In the beginning, he builds his daughter a beautiful ballerina flower/mouse that dances. And for a while, that...

Jan 18th

Sometimes, I hate having money. Especially when I go out. In sitting at a bar with my drink, eye raping this menu. I don’t think I’m actually hungry. Just wanting to buy food because I can. Fail. It’s not even the drink talking because this is only number 1. Money is baaaaaadddddd.

Jan 11th

Sometimes,

A little crazy makes all the difference. Thankfully, insanity is rampant.

Dec 23rd

Dec 13th

Nov 28th

I've got a pocketful of sunshine.

Best birthday ever. My wife is amazing. My friends are amazing. New boyfriend is pretty amazing too. (: Yesterday couldn’t have been better.

Sep 17th

It's strange

How much I love clubs/large crowds, but manage to not do anything. I’m loving where I’m at right now, sitting in a corner posting this, and reading ghost stories on my phone, while nursing a beer. Weird? Maybe. Pretty content though. (:

Sep 3rd

A magic A C T.

P O O F. I’m gone. ;)

Sep 2nd

Aug 19th

Aug 17th

“Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels.”

Aug 8th

Aug 1st

Fuck

Everything

Jul 28th

Watch

Lmfao.

Jul 18th

Reality check.

Just because I’m single, doesn’t mean I’m lonely. Just like ‘in a relationship’ doesn’t mean you’re happy. Js.

Jul 14th

Jul 8th

Jun 20th

“Can you explain somethin to me? Can you explain how you make love to someone,...”

– Roseanne

Jun 17th

You know what sucks?

Wanting to talk to that one person. Wanting to hear that one person. But knowing that, that person needs to fuck way off.

Apr 22nd

Watch

I miss my wifey. ):

Apr 6th

Mar 2nd

“Nobody ever said that love was reasonable.”

– Shirley

Feb 21st

Feb 5th

“I love you. I’m here now. That’s all I’ve got.”

– Sid Jenkins

Feb 1st

“It’s not a big deal, it’s just a blowjob.”

– Lisa

Jan 31st

Jan 29th

Signs?

I’ve always believed in them. Things do happen for a reason. Whether it be good or bad. And this may be the biggest. My mother told me not to go to London when I told her I was going. And now, she’s back in hospital for possible kidney failure. I can’t leave. I can’t go to London. I NEED to stay here. I NEED to be with her. London will always be there. Advanced...

Jan 27th

I want.

A relationship. But starting one now would be stupid, and selfish. But waiting, and having to start all over is going to kill me. Can’t I be there yet? Ugh.

Jan 8th

I'm finding myself...

Upset. I see my peers, happy, engaged or even married, and possibly even expecting. And it upsets me. I want that life. But, I’m glad I don’t have it at the same time. I’m glad to be furthering my career, and going places in life…. But… I can’t help but wonder what if. What if I had a wife? What if we both had a semi decent job and were expecting our first...

Jan 6th

Sunrise, surprise

Part of me is ready to be in London already. Starting a new life, meeting new people, learning new things, and enjoying a new place. And the other part of me is screaming not to leave. It’s just now hitting me, that, I only have 7 months left here. 7 months before everything I know changes. I’m terrified. Fucking. Terrified. I have 7 months to cram as many memories as I can. 2...

Jan 4th

Wife.

I love you. If I’m 100 miles away, or 5,000, you’ll always be my number one. You always will be. You’ve always been there. And always cared more about me than I have. I think Brian from Q.a.F. said it best. “if I see you tomorrow, or months.. Years.. It’s only time” And it is. Distance and numbers can’t come between a force as great as us. I...

Dec 31st

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I miss who you were.

The poet. The self loather. The lover. The intellect. The one who kept me grounded. The one who kept me honest. But dear god, I HATE what you’ve become. Time heals all wounds. I have a scar. I’m just glad that nasty fucking scab fell off.

Dec 29th

I. Am. Cannibal.

Nov 30th

Isn't this what you've dreamed about?

Soon, the rain, will was away the sun, As I melt withyou, I am ghost.<\I> Yea. It is. I just never expected any of it to happen. That’s what made it a dream. I’m not used to things happening. I’m not used to progression. Which is sad. Up until now, my life has been a party, with little consequence. I didn’t have to think about tomorrow, much less, months from...

Nov 2nd

two years ago.

i never thought that time could pass so quickly. but it has. two years ago. i was happy. i was still in some semblance of a relationship. i had the most amazing friends. i had a beautiful(but smelly), apartment. i had a decent(ish) job. i loved my life. two years ago, i threw parties, that everyone would come to. i went to parties, that everyone would go to. two years ago, i used to be...

Oct 22nd

You are, the ONLY exception.

Sketch: And, where do you see yourself in five years? Anwar: I don’t know… with my friends, having a laugh! Somewhere… Sketch: But, don’t you get it? They’ve got their plans, their futures, and, you’re not in them. They’ll smile everytime you call them. They’ll just take longer to return your calls. Being left behind, that’s not such a big...

Oct 20th

“Everything ends badly. Don’t you wish you could go back to when you...”

– Cassie (Skins)

Oct 18th

raise your glass if you are wong, in all the right...

all my underdogs. we will never be anything, but loud, and nitty gritty, dirty little freaks. won’t you c’mon and raise your glass? Dear P!nk, I love you, you’ve written the soundtrack to my life with every album you’ve made. Thank you for being fucking amazing. <3 always. o shit, my glass is empty. that sucks.

Oct 14th

more than anything.

right now, in this moment, all i want is a year ago. and, i don’t know why. right now, things are fucking great. school is amazing. my friends are amazing. my wife, still keeps me sane. and, i’m talking to a boy that actually gives a shit. but, all i can think about at this moment, is how much i want yesterday back. i want to be at the madison, watching bad tv with whitney. ...

Oct 5th

forever 21.

what a year. tomorrow, i turn 22. and getting from point A to point B has been quite the ride. in just a year i’ve: moved to a new city. been lonely. felt happiness again. lost touch with old friends. gotten my g.e.d. been let down, again. done something i shouldn’t have. been kind of arrested. had a frightening experience in my own home. am starting to get back in touch with...

Sep 15th

honsetly.

i’m tired of seeing couples, and being reminded of what i don’t have, but, am so happy that you proved to me that i deserve so much better.

Sep 8th

i'm fucking done. i can't do this anymore. I....

Sep 4th

the right kind of love, is the kind that knows to let go.

Sep 4th